The hardest thing I have ever had to do

11 Apr

A week ago, I ended my relationship with my fiance – the man that at the moment I am sure is the love of my life. I no longer believe that we are meant to be with the loves of our lives.  Although I love him deeply and dearly, the relationship was not a healthy one.  I often felt anxious and confused.  He and I are just not a good match – and I am certain that a future with him would be one of misery and sadness for me.  It almost seemed at times, that I was being sucked dry – he was getting all the benefits of being with a healthy partner, and I was constantly trying to comfort and console a needy child.

I know I have done the right thing, for me – for my future.  But I still feel deep sadness, like I am mourning a death.  And I feel so alone and bereft.

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